a prayer

I have journeyed far from You
But not really.
Perhaps better said
I have shut my eyes
Or looked away
Or made my place
For a time
Away from Your warmth
And Your Light.

But You are my Shepherd.
My wanderings do not confuse You
I can not lose You
My paths are familiar to You
And I am surprised to find You
When I was not even looking for You
But You were looking
Ever looking
Ever watching me.

I found You
Because You found me.
How this can be
How can this be
Wrapped up in Your mystery
Of Grace and Kindness
Strength and Sight
Penetrating the darkness
Overwhelming

How skilled You are
With the hearts of men
Softening and healing
Forming and growing
Bringing peace
And stillness.

There is nothing that I could do
To move You to pursue me
Like You do
A beautiful helplessness
A transformative worthlessness
A godly dependence
Is my inability to save myself

You saved me
You save me
Not because of the righteous works
I have done
Or have not done
But because of Your grace
Your never changing
Everlasting grace
Overpowering grace
Relentless grace
Ruthless grace even
Beating back the fall
Crushing my sin
Protecting the seed of the kingdom
Your kingdom
You planted in my heart.

I wonder where I will wander tomorrow?
Or the day after next?
I rest in the knowledge that You will find me
But Jesus
Please help me to wander
In Your steps
In Your Light
Into fields of peace
So that I might lead those
Who follow in my steps
Into Your Light
Your Love that casts out fear
Your grace that will change their hearts
Like You are changing mine.